I FUCKING LOVE COLORGUARD.

i know that anyone who knows me is aware of this fact.
but i'm seriously serious when i tell you

I FUCKING LOVE IT.

jersey surf is the most amazing thing i've been apart of ever. and i never want to stop.
comeeeee seee a show and you'll know why!


<3

		I will marry joe.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in denver, colorado in our fabulous House.
		We will have 6 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a hot pink lamborghini.
		I will spend my days as a model, and live happily ever after.

ha so i'm looking at all my entries and its like i'm bipolar. because my last entry was pure misery. but this one is destined to be wonderful. i'm so happy with everything. boys, colorguard, family. its all going in the right direction. i'm happy again (:

so, heres the deal. surf was amazing. i learned alot about myself and how much i want to do colorguard for the rest of my life. i don't see how i could ever live without it. its made me reaalize that i have to get out of my comfort zone and work a lot harder to acheive the goals that i want to reach. its going to make me work but i am honestly really willing to do it. and work on this for the rest of my colorguard career[which should be foreever] but i really don't want to get cut. if i do, then my back up is raiders. i really don't want to but it seems i have no other option. seraphim is making us go to triton rehearsals now? i think thats pretty interesting if you ask me. but i'm excited none the less. i think i'll go to both tuesday and thursday just to get more dance class in. about dance class. if anyone knows any where cheap and good then let me know. i think i'll be getting casso to give me personal lessons but still let me know!

i'm going to do better in life. and i'm going to make a move soon. i'm not sure how much more of this nonsense i can take.

haha micki's funny. i just read her most recent entry and i must agree. bloom is a babe.
anyway. colorguard is wonderful. and i thought i would jsut enmphasize how much i love our guard.
my solo makes my life complete. and i'm very happy about my five :)
our band is great and i loveeeeeeee my friends to pieces.
i really dont know what i would do without them.
ha i swear each of them makes some part of my life better/easier/more hilarious than it would be otherwise.
i love music and im soooo glad i got a new ipod.
i was so miserable without one. like i was literally slowly dying. haha
im torn about what i'm going to do in the spring. because i defintely think it would be too much to worry about school indoor drum corp and lax.
so i dont think i will be doing lax.
which is actually really really really sad because it was so much fun.
like it sucked but i had a lot of really great memories.
but yea. my life is absolutely amazing lately.
i'm really happy with where i'm going with guard too!
so yay for life!

colorguard is such a fucking roller coaster of emotions.

so dude. so many freaking things to say. number one on my mind right now is seraphim. its going to be absolutely amazing! i can't even wait or begin to tell you how excited i am about this. first of all, the song we are performing to is sooooooo freaking kick ass. its definitely a song i would pick if i was writing a guard show. oh man i'm so excited! the workshop today was really really fun too. the work was fun. i'm extremely excited about seraphim. and i'm really glad i didnt go to fov because its fun and since i'm really not going to be doing indoor for the rest of my life like krista did i think this will be a really good experience. and i'll get the most for my money i think. i could be wrong but whatever. 
     
anyway. on a marching band note. we had our first show the other day and it was good. but! we need to keep working harder because the other colorguards were about the same as us. and im sure they are working harder and harder everyday. but i really think that at least from a guard stand point were going to do really well this year. as long as we keep on truckin. :D

school is basically killing me alive. if that makes sense. but it really is. chem and bio will probably be the death of me. i already have a friggen 86 in chem. wtf. but whatever. i'll have to push thru it. 68 days to the first jsurf camp! hellyeaaaaaaaa. thats gonna be amazing too :D i have nothing really else to say because i'm stil sooooooooooooooo excited about seraphim!!!!!

sooo. this is sort of exciting.
i can def do drum corp and i already have two sponsors.
but im not saying it on here cause i got dibs sucka.
and i probably will do seraphim.
i'm really excited about that becauseeee there doing wgi.
but i did sort of want to get a job.
whatever. i'll worry about the future some other time.
hahaha.

so school was interesting. i dont really feel like writing a ton of shit about it. but chemistry is going to be interesting. i hear ms mcvay is funny for like the first 5 days and then you hate her. i mean ryan lelache hated her and he was valedictorian. so yea. im sorta scared about that. and human bio is going to be my favorite class. mrs hunt is the sweetest lady every and i missed having her. the class is already really interesting and even though we have a lot of homework its fun and i like it. i think if i just sttay on top of everything then i'll be good.

lunch is fun. i go to the band room. the end. gym is HUGE. i have it with joe and cassandra so i'll be cool with that. and then latin is going to be the worst. the people in my class arent fun at all and mrs vuolos gonna be like horrible with us because they never know when to shut up. i hate people that take advantage of mrs vuolo she's wayyy too nice.

but yea concert band should be interesting. belskis is trying to be a hardass and he is not going to win. im not about to have him make mellophone even worse. i hope josh muska doesnt drop the class. he's kinda funny.

but yea between school and rehearsal on thursday me joe ron and rachel went out to eat. and it was really fun. hopefully we do that every week. and i just wont eat the fast food. ill get wawa shit. or something. that really killed my stomach for some reason. but yea and then i threw a six on rifle and that made my whole week :D

yea i said i didnt want to write much but whatever. its been fun. school is alright this year.

so seriously these past two weeks have been the best of the whole summer. my friends are fun and i'm glad over all about this summer. even if i dont realize it i definitely accomplished a lot. like not in the whole money dance class aspect but i dont know. im still in shape so thats good. i dont i didnt really make any huge mistakes and i made a shit load of memories and i got closer to a lot of really good people. i'm sad summers over but i think school will be great.

and marching band will be even better :D

so i dont know why i'm so happy all the time. 
but i really am. 
and the funny thing is, 
i have more issues in my life now then ever before. 
but for some reason i guess my head is sick of being sad and angry 
all the time so its reacting in this new ridiculous way. 
but i've got to tell you, 
i love it.

 so here's the deal. i'm boring myself with everything i do everyday. i need to set some goals. and here they are.

all a's in my classes.
run everyday no matter what. [except band camp]
raise money for drum corp
take dance classes
& do everything colorguard :D

i'm thinking i'm definitely not gonna do an indoor unless we have it for the school because i think i'm gonna get a job. i think i'll be okay with drum corp and dance classes. well i'll have to. because i need to be reaalistic and start saving up for my life. and maybe even driving school :o

but yeah. my whole family life is a mess too. but you know, it always is. and no talk is gonna change anything. but whatever. think on the bright side laura :D

so i'm running a marathon in my life. and thats a promise to me and everyone else. hopefully i'll do it befo high school but you know i wont. hah 

so outdoor is great. there may only be nine of us but i really know that we all care enormously about colorguard and we all work really hard for it. i mean with the exception of like two girls i know we all definitely go home and practice everyday. its really great because i know were going to be amazing. seriously, the other group two guards better watch the fuck out ;D 

but other than that. life is pretty boring. i basically do the same thing everyday. but i like our little party things we have before every rehearsal. like me lor and alicia just hang out at one of our houses and practice somewhat but mostly hang  out and talk about everyone haha. but its okay because i still love everyone. so its cool. but yeah since my dad left things have been pretty easy going. like i dont have to worry about much. i mean other than all the chores and stuff life is pretty easy. the kids are annoying of course but dude, take them to the park once or twice and there lives are complete. but yeah. today i'm supposed to be taking them to the mall which is cool because i want to go find some more pants for running. i mean i like running in shorts but they ride and you know. but anyway. 

i'm getting a new phone finally. i mean its really not that new because its my brothers old phone because he's getting the iphone but its nice. i like it whatever. no one else really does. but its cute. but besides that there is nothing to talk about. livejournal and computers are starting to get on my nerves. like i cant keep up with all this nonsense all the time. all i'm worried about is me. kthanks.

 so allentown was basically the highlight of my entire summer.

 i should have gone to egypt.







ps. i hate sucking at rifleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

so surf is actuallly becoming more and more a reality. i started saving like two weeks ago and i already have close to a hundred dollars. and thats only the money my parents give me. i need to start fundraising some more and shit i know but still. and i'm thinking of saving my food money that i get every week during marching band and then just packing lunch. but i duno. i tried that during indoor and it didnt work out so well but whateva. PLUS. my mom is applying for this job. it gonna take her a couple months to get the papers and stuff for it but she's suppposed to get like 100,000 dollars a year. when shes only making like 30,000 now. so yeah. i'm hoping she can put aside an extra 500 for me at least. 

vacation pretty much sucked. and i missed my friends. the only great thing i got out of it was a better tan than before. and more time to read. 

the dci show is in a week and i cannnnnnnnnot fuckingg wait. its going to be amazing.